I’m sold on the idea that our personal God stories are the best tools we have for telling others about Jesus. Sandra Nunn’s story, He Loves Me Not, He Loves Me is a story that shows how completely God can change a person.
Sandra was in a dead marriage. She had grown to despise her husband, Ernie, and had given up any hope of reconciling with him. These two lived in the same house in separate rooms, each refusing to leave.
Their love for each other started to die when they were in the mid-twenties. Ernie became entangled in a dispute in their church. He was a young man training for ministry when a ridiculous debate landed him in hot water. As tends to happen with church disputes, more people than necessary became involved and soon the anthill became a mountain. Ernie’s enrolment in seminary was revoked. He despaired as anyone would. His despair turned to rage; first with God and with the people who destroyed his plans for the future, and then with Sandra.
Ernie raged for more than thirty years. Then one night he was awakened by a voice calling his name. After searching the house and finding everyone asleep, he concluded that God was calling his name. As Ernie contemplated the meaning of this, these words from scripture came to his mind – “leave everything you have and come and follow me.”
Ernie said to God, “I don’t have anything to leave.”
God said, “Leave your anger and unforgiveness.”
That night Ernie knelt by his bed and wept. As tears flowed, God cleansed his soul of three decades of anger and bitterness. For six months he didn’t tell anyone about this miracle. He kept quiet as God continued to mend his broken heart and transform his emotions.
Part of Ernie’s transformation was that he fell in love with his wife, Sandra, again. Really in love. Today, these two speak in churches and at marriage seminars telling how God restored their relationship. They share their personal story because it’s the best tool any of us have for letting others know that God cares about them.
Ernie and Sandra’s story reminds us that the God who created the universe isn’t distant, He is still calling individuals by name, still transforming, healing and showing His love.